Restructuring...or Maybe "Consolidating" Would Be a Better Term

[kiyakotari]

I've been thinking about this for a while, and discussed it with one of my local friends. I thought it would be nice to get some thoughts from you guys about it.

I'm considering restructuring my doll collection, in several different ways. One, I know now for sure that I prefer 1/3 scale dolls to 1/4 scale ones. I don't do much of anything at all with my MSD-sized dolls. I still want their characters to have doll bodies, for the most part, but I've been moving toward getting 1/3 scale resin versions of almost all of them. Once I do that, I'll do even less with the 1/4 scale ones. Stangely enough, I found that while I don't like the tiny-tinies or the MSD-sized dolls, YoSD-scale fits me rather well.

If I did this, it would mean selling off the small versions of Luke Alan, Aiko, probaby Daiichi, and Tyaeli. I would get larger versions of Aiko, Luke Alan, and Daiichi. Tyaeli...I don't think I would re-embody him.

Which brings me to the second aspect of this restructuring I'm looking at: I've slowly come to realize that I'm not well-suited to owning dolls that I didn't...look for. I guess that's hard to explain. I'll try: Most of my collection are sculpts that I've found with a particular personality or character in mind. I wanted to make a resin version of that character, and I searched (and in some cases, purchased, changed my mind, discarded and re-purchased) until I found the sculpt that would work. These dolls speak to me, quite clearly, and very, very actively. They are the ones I do the most with. They are the ones that have an existence outside their resin selves. However...I also have dolls that I bought because I desired their sculpts, and in these cases I created a personality to go along with them, or perhaps the personality created itself, but in either case the same holds true; They are tied in inextricably to their resin forms. They are not separate, and they are inseparable. I cannot draw a line there. If I sold Tyaeli, I would not re-embody him simply because he exists only within the B-el sculpt. This is the reason I sold my Soah - she only existed because I wanted her to.

If I removed those dolls from my collection, it would mean selling off Umbrae, Tyaeli, Little Evil, and possibly Unnamed. Unnamed is a bit more complicated, because it was a gift from Volks, and I'm not sure yet that I can approach the idea of selling it due to that, even though I have almost no actual desire to do anything with it.

I'd feel guilty getting rid of Umbrae and Tyaeli, though, because while I don't feel strongly invested in them anymore, I do know that some of my friends are. Especially Umbrae. And I do adore him, I just...don't want to do anything with him. And I don't like the idea of him sitting naked in my bedroom (which is where he's been for the past five months or so) gathering dust. Though it's also a bit painful to imagine someone else owning him and getting him repainted (especially getting him repainted), I'm not the type to sell a doll with some stupid "but only if you don't ever _____."

Thoughts on this? Maybe it's just a sign that I'm looking for or approaching a period of some changes in my life.


If I did make these changes, these would be the results.

I Would Own
Darryl
Wren
Talon
Jian Yuan
Rafe
Hideo
Big!Aiko
Big!Luke Alan
Hiiroshi
Oracle (A Project Doll, and Really More for Display than Activity)
Heero

I would Still Want to Buy
Hunter
Laith
Tekla
Abigail
Big!Daiichi
Duo(?)
Wufei(?)
(etc)

I Would Sell
Umbrae
Tyaeli
Little!Daiichi
Little!Luke Alan
Little!Aiko
Little Evil
(possibly)Unnamed

Comments

[euphorias-child.livejournal.com]

Yay. Glad to hear that he's on the move. I was wondering about my darling. I was thinking about your situation the other night. I wouldn't want my entire crew in doll-form. I'd have no room to breathe. Umbrae is a fantastic and wonderful character, but looking back into an old paper entry in a journal of mine, I did wonder why you wanted to bring him to life in resin form. I guess we all get a bit carried away with our passions. Wouldn't you agree?

My first impulse of course was to jump on the "Oh I'd give him a good home!" bandwagon, but after about five minutes of turning my computer off I thought that it was such a silly thought. Naturally I'd love to hold him for you in case you changed your mind, but I personally wouldn't know what to do with him except stick him in a closet, and what good would that do? Someone would really love to have the doll body I'm sure.

*yawns*Sorry, got up at five...

I'd say...As I said earlier, not to let yourself get buried in layers of things. The last thing on your mind should be what people think. You're not going to hurt my feelings if you nudge him on out there to give yourself breathing space. If he feels almost like an oppressive force at the moment, I'd want him out too. I always hate owning things that I do not use. It's smart to spread out instead of becoming lost in rat-pack (and I do not mean Frank Sinatra or darling Dean Martin) tendencies.

[euphorias-child.livejournal.com]

Seriously, Kiya.

You don't have to placate me or anyone else that you've ever been involved with when it came to your character(s)/doll(s).

Kick the sucker(s) out.

(I say that with the utmost respect. >_> Really.)

[kiyakotari.livejournal.com]

Well, the reason I embodied him in the first place is that his character was born out of the sculpt. I didn't have an "Umbrae" until I saw the promo pictures of Hound. So it seemed natural that I should buy a Hound to become him. But now I've moved on, am refocusing my writing efforts, and since my dolls are so closely tied in to that, it's time for my collection to reflect it.

[euphorias-child.livejournal.com]

Exactly, Miss.

*prods you with a stick.*

...Ahem. I was involved in the whole long hours of conversation as you fretted about buying/creating/talking about his invented self. You don't need to tell me, silly! >.<

... Actually come to think of it, I've seen your darlings grow dramatically. O_O ...

...

Oh lord. I suddenly feel...

oddly old.